Perpetually Positive and Openly Optimistic

I would normally consider myself a perpetually positive and openly optimistic person.  Ya know that question about how would your friends describe you.  I believe those are two of the adjectives they would use.  They would probably also say friendly.  Pretty good qualities, right.

Well, to be honest, I have not been feeling positive or optimisitic about dating or the more pressing issue is finding the Date of the Month for January.   Over the weekend I had breakfast with a few of my friends.  I expressed my feeling about my impeding failure in finding my date of the month.  At that time I had 5 days to find the mystery January.  My very supportive friends tried to get me to snap out of it.  They suggested using some positive statements and mantras.  In psychology you learn about the Self Actualizing Theory that basically says if you believe you can't....then you won't but if beleive that you can....you will.  My friends were trying to tell me to believe in myself.  Fair argument.......but I am NOT going to stand in front of a mirror saying things like, "I am worthy of finding a great man" or "I am someone's one and only".  Just can do it.  and now I only have two days before the end of the month.  I will take some of their advice and not let the idea of failure get me down.  I really am a very positive and optimistic person.  Who knows.....maybe tomorrow there will be a sexy man at Starbucks and our eyes will lock and sparks will fly while we wait for our lattes.  Maybe!

On a different note, before I had made the active decision to be more optimistic I received a text from a friend.  He is this guy I used to work with.  He is single and we flirted a bit but never went out.  He asked me about dating.  I admitted that I was feeling a bit defeated by the dating monster.  He responded saying, "I'd be happy with a fwb at this point."   If you are not sure what a fwb is, don't feel bad.  It took me a minute to figure it out.  fwb stands for friends with benefits.  I then text saying, "I don't want a fwb.   I do not want awkward sex."  I was channeling Dr. Seuss.  I should have followed that up with I do not want it here or there, I do not want it anywhere.  I do not like awkward sex.  

He was a bit insistent and text, "Fwb can work without being awkward."  I wished him luck on his hunt for a fwb.  He then informed me that he is not hunting.  So I text, "Well maybe a fwb will just fall on your dick.  Hopefully she falls gently."  He said, "You have quite an attitude tonight."  Yeah, I did.  He is observant.  So I text and asked, "Lol is that a compliment or just passive observation.  Yes, I am feeling very feisty."  He said it was just an observation but he liked the idea of a woman falling on his dick.  

Oh and check out the pen my mother and sister got for me......so thoughtful of them.