New Years Resolutions.....Make-A-Wish

Many people make new years resolutions.  These resolutions are often forgotten or abandoned by March.  I am also guilty of this.  So I decided to come up with a Bucket List of different things I want to do/ accomplish.  I have been continually adding things to my list as I think of them.  There is no timeline for my bucket list.  Some I hope to check off this year while others will take longer to accomplish. 

After recent events I added -Date higher quality men to my list.  Other things on my list include –Travel to Boston, -Actually pay off a car, and –Perform stand up in another state.  While I cannot check off the one about dating higher quality men yet I did make steps toward accomplishing another one of the items on my Bucket List.  One of the first things I added to my list was –Volunteer for a worthy cause.  I decided on the Make-A-Wish Foundation and today I went to the orientation and training. 

In general I am feeling a little blah about dating.  So it was nice to focus some energy on something else.  At least with Make-A-Wish I can give some Hope, Strength, and Joy to a child suffering with a life threatening illness.   

I wish I could say that I wasn’t a little sad about the way things ended with A.  He has not contacted me in the last week and I sure as hell am not going to contact him again. One of my guy friends sent me a message on Facebook.  He reads this blog (wonder how many other guys do).  He is so smart said, “You did nothing wrong except be honest and vulnerable. That's brave and wonderful of you - don't beat yourself up for that because you don't deserve it.”   I really wish I could say that I took his advice but I can’t help it and beat myself up a bit.  Being vulnerable sucks.  

My friend, Kaitlin did offer to be my January date.  However the catch was that the date she planned would include going to see the scary movie, Mama.  In case you don’t know……I DO NOT like scary movies about ghosts, aliens, zombies, or any other supernatural freaky thing.  Once, I tried to watch the movie The Ring with Kaitlin.  I don’t even think I made it 20 minutes in before I was yelling at her to turn it off.  She thought it was HILLAROUS….but I was freaked out. 

Kaitlin, thanks but no thanks.  I think the idea of approaching, talking to, and asking out an attractive stranger freaks me out less than the idea of a scary movie.